The strenuous experience of existing in a body has sprouted coping mechanisms of observing themselves. They dissect subconscious observations for their own sanity to de-construct sensations. Observing themselves in the lens of objectification and humanization, it showcases a multi-layered reality. The conflict within flawlessness has formed an obsession with aestheticization of mental dimensions and rejection of the perfect form. Deepening the comprehension of the material of their psyche has unraveled a mental state that is coated in different definitions and disorders, which exposes uncanny confusion and the liminal spaces in beauty. Learning to treat their physical self as an entity that needs to be watered, they become rooted in a carefully calibrated relationship between light and the absence of light.
I focus on anthropologically constructing the ecosystem of my brain and developing an encyclopedic manual of this ecosystem tied to the linguistic method of mythopoeia. As a cartographer maps out an atlas, I map out the neurodivergence that my brain experiences during different emotional moments, making sure to note both the similarities and the differences of the “terrain”, the “bodies of water”, the “atmosphere”, and the “ecosystem” of every region.
